Whenever I go to blogs that were well kept up for a time and then suddenly stop I can't help but wonder what happened. Did they get tired of blogging? Did something happen to the blogger? So I decided even though it's been a while and I'm unsure of the future of the blog or the direction things in my life will go from here I would post and share what's gone on this winter as much as possible.
The goats...my goats, are gone. The pigs are gone. No gardens are planted or planned. And I am sad. I loved the homestead and this life in general and I miss it. This winter brought both health concerns and family concerns that left me feeling the only realistic thing to do was to find homes for as many animals as possible and stay flexible with as much of the rest as I could. Letting go of it all is and has been an ongoing process. It's been depressing and the sense of loss at times has been overwhelming. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring.
Having said all that, spring is here. The leaves are emerging and bulbs are in bloom. And with all that sunshine and new growth I find my mind wandering around the edges of possibility. I am already finding myself trying to think up a way to keep or get back some of what I lost these past months. At this point I would be happy with a small vegetable garden. Certainly animals are not a possibility this year but perhaps next year I can start over with that too. Perhaps not, but for today even the hope of it eases the loss.
I had considered ending the blog when things started coming undone but didn't and now I've have decided not to. Hopefully I'll have things to add every now and then even if I don't have enough going on to post like I did last year. And a very heartfelt thanks to the folks that have emailed to check on me or let me know you've missed me or the posts or both. It's meant a lot.
Hoping your all having a wonderful and productive spring.
Elizabeth
